Getting Up Earlier

Am a chronic over-sleeper and NOT morning person. Historically, I am lost to the world until about ten in the morning - regardless of coffee consumption, alcohol consumption or stress levels. I may get out of bed, if I'm not depressed, but I am not alive when I do so. Had I ever been to Haiti, there would have been reason to believe that recent sightings of zombies was less to do with voodoo, and more to do with La Fitz having left her bed before her regular hours. It's a running joke around people I know: "You sleep like a teenager." And I do. I don't like it, though, because it also carries with it this undertone of "You're lazy", which 1) I'm not and 2) there's something about other people TELLING me who I am, especially when it's stuff which is either negative or unproductive, which trickles back into how I see myself. All of which adds up to a general vibe of artsy but stifled incompetence, which I've become way too comfortable in over the last five years.

The other problem with sleeping that much, of course, is that i don't currently have time to to do that. Not in a stressful "i have a million things to do" was, because my job is very low stress. ( At least when the canine bowels behaves themselves, and there aren't too many public transport disasters). But I need to be able to do my faffing around in the morning, so that I can do my school work at night (I still hang on to calling my doctorate "school work", even though it sounds childish - doing anything to make it feel less intimidating). I'm still happy to take naps when I need to, but I can't be sleeping a minimum of 10 hours a night at the moment. To try and fix this, I've started eating better so I have more energy, cut out caffeine so I sleep more soundly, and taking lots of different food supplements (more on this when I get back from a wedding in New Hampshire). <--- I will keep this under control; I hate food blogs with the snide passion I normally reserve for people who really care about recycling.

It's WORKING. I got up at 7.30 this morning, even though I don't absolutely have to, and am now headed downstairs to make myself a cooked breakfast. I've had the time to write this, check my emails, and am going to cook myself some breakfast. Been doing it for the past five days; and I managed to have a really good evening of writing yesterday DESPITE not being in bed all morning. An Operation Adulthood win!